Yesterday was a terrible, I had in my mind that I needed to continue my TCC, but in the end I didn't end up doing anything and by anything I mean literally nothing. If I had spent the day trying to interact and make friends it would have been more useful than doing nothing.

I hate my mind, I wish it were easier to focus and do what I need to do, and because I feel guilty for not doing what I should be doing I also end up not doing anything that could be fun either.

I feel like this is making me depressed, I feel like no one likes me anymore and all the interactions I could have had I have already lost, no one cares about me anymore and I feel like a complete failure.

I wish I had friends